His name is Ben. He has a decent work with a decent salary. He is living independently. It's what he chose to do. He wants to prove how responsible he is although most of the times, he failed.
His life has been predictable over the years. But it's actually better now. Better because he is now able to control the decision he makes. It's different before.
He's been in a relationship for two years but because of his own paranoia, the girl left him. The girl was pretty. The girl was really attractive. Every man's dream. They're a good pair. They look good together. They are a package. They were crazy about each other. They have their own world indeed. Those things were also the same reason why he was not satisfied and happy later on. He's feeling inferior. That's the case he knew. He accepted it and moved on.
He has no regrets about what happened. He knew it was better for both of them to grow. He knew it was the right decision. In fact they were still friends but they don't see each other. LOVE? There is still a lot but he can hide it and he can just pretend there is none anymore.
Now he's searching. The thing is, he doesn't want people to know he is searching - as in desperately searching. He just go with the flow. He just let things happen according to its own will but he is really desperate. Nobody knows he is desperate, just himself.
Everyday he met a lot of different people. From work to the different environment he is into. But he doesn't have the gutts. He lacks confidence. He's afraid. For one reason that he hated most - COMPARISON.
His life has been predictable over the years. But it's actually better now. Better because he is now able to control the decision he makes. It's different before.
He's been in a relationship for two years but because of his own paranoia, the girl left him. The girl was pretty. The girl was really attractive. Every man's dream. They're a good pair. They look good together. They are a package. They were crazy about each other. They have their own world indeed. Those things were also the same reason why he was not satisfied and happy later on. He's feeling inferior. That's the case he knew. He accepted it and moved on.
He has no regrets about what happened. He knew it was better for both of them to grow. He knew it was the right decision. In fact they were still friends but they don't see each other. LOVE? There is still a lot but he can hide it and he can just pretend there is none anymore.
Now he's searching. The thing is, he doesn't want people to know he is searching - as in desperately searching. He just go with the flow. He just let things happen according to its own will but he is really desperate. Nobody knows he is desperate, just himself.
Everyday he met a lot of different people. From work to the different environment he is into. But he doesn't have the gutts. He lacks confidence. He's afraid. For one reason that he hated most - COMPARISON.
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